Too late

You are too late, now am undone,
I sing a diatribe,
I try to heal the gashes
and build up my strength,
but the throe is to much to bear.

I cry and sob flooding my pillow,
the sleepless nights turning me into a insomniac
Your face and voice haunting me.

The first tryst pure bliss,
Laughter then followed tears.

Now its a new dawn cold yet refreshing,
My self resurrection from the grave;
stronger, thicker and harder.

My heart castaway, only coldness prevail.
shadows surrounding, darkness casting,
vengeance gushing in my veins,
Am no angel to forgive you,
in my hand lays your doom.....

Hypocrite

I am a hypocrite..
yes I am, I allege and proclaim
my individuality but am dominated
and made to be someone else because of force majeure.

I can't breathe,
I can't be,
I am barely existing, blurred, and numb.

I cannot forgive myself for the things am doing,
The possession of the counterfeited identity is suffocating.

But the cockles of my heart orates that am not obliterated
completely.

Am sacrificing myself; a noble deed indeed..
so I inspirit myself, and interim to see my true reflection.
Waiting for the shammed semblance to abase.......

L'Original

Originality is what I crave,breathe,aspire.
yesterday I was conscious but not today
and will not be tomorrow.

Being me has made me feel me,
When I was young I walked in
someone else shoes.

They smothered me; my identity of who I am.
but now I have hatched myself to be me.

Committing my own mistakes, my own blunders,
has invigorated my being.

Even when monstrosity supervenes on my own
accord I will embrace it.
Because I am me....

Your postexistence effect

Its been years still I miss you,
Its been years still I love you,
Why can't I hate you ?
Why can't I forget you ?

Too much pressure inside me,
battle between the mind's intellect
and the heart's intellect.

I am aware that I am naked and cold
without you.
consumed by silence and darkness
my being wanders.

My shadow is my only companion
later he fades in the dark leaving me alone.

If you had hurt me and left,
my bruises would have healed,
but you loved me more than life
then destiny took you
away from me..

I keep falling alone,
deep somewhere I don't know
no strings attached to cushion my fall.

all I can do is stick to my faith and hope
wishing that i will be laid beside you
in my eternal rest.